do you ever get really paranoid about something that you cant really do anything about so you nag the fuck out of someone who can and then they get pissed at you and you feel even worse cuz now not only are you paranoid as fuck but now on top of that that person’s pissed at you and you just end up feeling like shit and wanting to curl up in a ball and hide in your room forever.
If you’re a “nice guy” to a girl up until you realize she doesn’t want to date you, then go on about how she’s a cold shrew that friendzoned you and how no girls date nice guys, like, nah mate, girls do date nice guys. You just aren’t a nice guy. You’re a passive aggressive beta with internalized misogyny and a serious victim complex.
I want to get hurt. A car accident, anything. I want to get injured enough to wind up in a hospital, just to see if anyone would come to make sure I’m okay. And I’d pretend to be sleeping or dying so in case anyone actually did come, they would sit at the edge of my bed, crying, and tell me everything. I want to hear everything they’ve ever thought of me, how they really feel, if they’re sorry for anything. I just want to know the truth. And I want to know who truly cares about me.
GUYS I ASKED THE CUTE BOY IN MY CHEM CLASS FOR A PEN AND AT THE END OF THE CLASS I WENT TO GO GIVE IT BACK TO HIM, I ENDED UP STABBING HIM IN THE HAND WITH IT AND IT WAS BLEEDING AND IF THAT DOESNT EXPLAIN WHY I DONT HAVE A BOYFRIEND I DONT KNOW WHAT WILL.